Thursday, December 9, 2010

Mindful

Last night at church, a church member rushed up to me to ask if I got her email. I said no, but that I hadn't checked my emails that afternoon. She said that she sent it on Monday and I told her that I had not received it. She said that she woke up on Monday with me on her mind and felt an urgency to pray for me. She prayed for me all day. I told her that Monday afternoon I got sick with a terrible stomach bug. We both stood almost speechless after discussing my Monday.

I have not been able to get out of my mind that God placed me on her heart. I am very thankful that she was obedient to pray for me. But what has really hit me hard is that I was on God's mind. I know that I am never off of God's mind, but I'll be honest and tell you that I often loose sight of that fact. I know that God loves me and I know that Lamentations tells me that He sings over me. I know these things in my head, but sometimes they don't always make the journey to my heart.

On Monday night I lay in my bed in tears. I was feeling horrible and have never had my stomach hurt that bad before. At times I wondered if I was going to survive. (And I wonder why my daughter is so dramatic!) I was talking myself out of calling my mama because it was so late, but I really just wanted to hear somebody act like they cared that I so sick. My husband did great with the kids, but I didn't feel that he was acting concerned enough with my sickness. His approach is to stay very far away. One time when I had the flu, he brought me a cooler and put it by the bed because he didn't want to have to keep coming in there with me. What he doesn't realize is that along with the beverages, I like to also receive a good measure of sympathy. And on Monday that just wasn't happening.

So I lay there wanting my mama, reminding myself that I am 37 years old and that I needed to not be a baby, but really wanting my mama. Yes, that about sums it up. In the end, sanity won out and I did not end up calling my mama. But I did lay there asking Jesus to help me.

And do you know what I was reminded of yesterday...He was already working on my behalf before I even knew of my need. Before I even knew that I was going to be sick, He had someone praying for me. Now that puts things into perspective!

Who am I that You are mindful of me, Lord? Your love is overwhelming!

May I see things through your eyes today!


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Tracy said...

I enjoyed your blog. I wrote a blog not long ago called "He knows one among Billions." It is amazing to me how God is just as concerned about one as He is about you, me and others.

I can also relate to you about needing sympathy when you are sick. I am the same way and like yours my husband tries hard but sometimes... LOL I got a laugh at that, glad I am not the only one.

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Tracy